Dear God

Dear Lord,

I find myself writing to you today as I feel I have not been able to talk to you. Not because I don't want to but because my head is full of things at this time. I am having a hard time clearing away all the noise so that I can talk to you. I feel you, I know you have not forgotten about me and actually it's me who seems to be drifting away from you. I am making this statement because I don't want to fall off my path and be lost in the world. Although I do feel lost right now, something tells me that I am not completely off my path but just simply taking some scenic routes on the way to you. These routes are taking me on a path that is helping me see with more clarity but they are coming with lots of guilt. I feel like I keep falling off my wagon and learning some very valuable lessons as I pick myself up each time. I guess that's the only way we learn (or at least for me).

I continually assess myself but this doesn't always work. Many times there is a battle within myself that if I focus too much on it, I would go insane. What's right doesn't always match my actions and this makes me feel guilty. Dear God, please forgive my sins as I go through this life seeking what you sent me for.