Casas, Cosas y Cambios

Time to report again.... I found my apartment and am super excited about it!! Do you know that I have never lived on my own?!!! Yup, I lived my whole life with my family until I met my husband. I got married young and lived with him, building our life together for many years. Two years ago, what I knew to be my life, drastically changed. Looking back, I never thought I would be this far. What I mean is, that I never thought I would be this independent. I have been a half of a whole (zira told me this) for many years and all of a sudden, I was just a half. Although I have my kids to fill me, it's not the same not having a significant other. I lost my house by choice as I needed a new beginning, I would see the memories seeping out of the walls and it was torture. This new beginning for me has less credit, more budgeting skills and the idea that I am alone in my decisions. I am lucky that I have a supportive family and definitely lucky that I have great friends. It is they who pull me through my rough spots. Next week, I sign my lease and start moving! yay! I have pretty much gotten rid of things that I shared with my ex-husband and am looking forward to buying my own stuff. My apartment is small but I like that. I hear that keeping a small place clean can be a challenge but I will use this opportunity to keep myself organized. I kinda lost my organization skills along the way even though I know that I work best this way. To those who know my journey, keep praying for me, it is the only thing that will help me :)