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I wrote about this a while ago but now it's here. I'm moving!!! Yes, here I am finally closing the last chapter of my previous life. Each chapter in my book has had it's ups and downs, it's slippery slopes and it's crashes so as I turn the last page, I can't help but feel emotional. I have spent 10 years in this house of ours, making memories that will last a lifetime. My oldest-Alexis is having a hard time with this change and I completely understand. How do I show her that things will always work out? I guess by example. My kids are learning one big life lesson that is based on one decision...one decision that started the domino effect. I refuse to feel guilty over this because I have enough to carry but this just shows how one's life can change drastically from one decision.
Alexis, Matthew and Paula, I offer my apologies to you right now for not being able to keep our house, for having a marriage that failed and for not teaching you about God because if you knew him, you would never lose hope or faith that things will always work out. You would know that he will always take care of us and provide us what we need. The signs are all around but you just don't see them right now but like everything in life, in time you will see, you will see.
I give my kids credit. They have been through many changes in the last year and they have managed to stay positive. I am proud of them for being understanding and sticking together. This may come in handy when I am gone. I hope that they will always remember to stick together, spend time together and love each other like no one else can.
I promise that the next chapter in our book will be filled with new adventures and lots of good memories! Your mama is wiser now and ready to take on the world as God intends her to experience it
Kika, I think you have done a wonderful job with your kiddos...really I do. I see so many people's children get used as pawns when this happens and you and Edgar did well not doing that. I think that alone will make this easier for them and you. Kids are resilient and someday they will understand why you did what you did. They may not get it right now but it will just take one single thing that will trigger a memory and they'll go, "That's what Mom was talking about!" and all the pieces will come together.
ReplyDeleteI look up to you as a fellow mom, a friend, and a leader.
I love you!