Sylvia

It's been 2 years that our beloved sister, mother,wife,aunt,grandmother and everything else she was to us, passed away. For those that have never (ever) lost a loved one let me just say that you will never even begin to understand the grief one feels when you lose such an important person in your life. Something so sudden, changes you as a person. No one, will ever be the same person they were before their loss.

Sylvia was the type of woman that never held back, her thoughts matched her actions and she left such an impression on all of us. As the years pass us by, I can only thank the Lord for allowing me to be part of her life. What she taught me will carry with me forever. She never had the opportunity to see the new me, but this new me has many components of her, we all do.
Don't be too sad this holiday season, after all it became one of her favorite holidays. I loved seeing the Christmas tree Michelle put together with her family that had heels as ornaments and on top, an angel, a picture of her beautiful mother. Wow! That is soo cool and what a way to honor her memory!

Some of you have heard me say that it took my about 20 years before I could speak openly about the loss of my own mother. It took many years of masking my pain before I realized that all those years, I was grieving my mother. No one can say that you are taking too long to grieve but this void will be in your heart forever. Never carry this heavy burden alone, talk about her as often as you need to and cry until you cannot cry anymore, then, cry some more. It's healthy.

I for one, vow to continue honoring her memory, remembering her advice, thinking about all the good times we had together and crying every time I need even if it means I will have puffy eyes the next day. Never ever EVER will I be the same, never.
I love each and every one of you, so I want you to remember this always...
I am who I am because of you
I am nothing without you
I will cut someone if they mess with you
I will always be here if you need me, can never replace her but I'm a good listener
I love you family,
Kika